I am bloated. need to exercise, my boss said, u seem to have grown fatter over ther weekend............... no wonder she dun want to see me ...

i use to think all those soppy romantic chinese songs are so crappy.. used to .. life is full of bittersweet memories and those songs somehow just reminds me of that. sometimes i wish life wouldbe just like a console game, press reset and everything is wipe clean. but it's more like a MMORPG, u have to live with your mistakes and there is no reset and the rules keep changing by the developers and your skills and items are constantly nerfed.. new content gets added in but you have to pay to get them.. Life is really like one big bill to pay through.

Still feel unwanted , i guess it's time to let her go and stop hanging onto her. 2 weeks is a long time not to meet and i am pretty much at the bottom of her list of prioties. Should i take up a degree? it'll mean a very tight budget for the next 3-4 years. so many choices , so little time.

 

It's been 20 days since my last post,  the rhythm of my life is flowing fast thick and strong, it's not smooth but i seem to manage to jump over any stones or rocks. Still clueless about my relationship. Times i want to let go and be done with it stop all this dragging etc but it's in both our chars i guess. As usual things ge so much better when we are face to face.... Another 3 weeks gone, oh yeah, Happy Birthday to ELEG! CATHY! and ELEG GF! i have been playing mahjong at bryan house for past weekends and on the 3rd night i won money!it was like my 1st win at mahjong for 10 years! Crossroads, 1) get a degree 2) get a certification, 1) = alot of money spend then 2) and longer time taken and i am not sure if i can make it, 2) = less money short term but it's only MCSE. My house HDD crashed, now working everyday on my laptop...